currently studying for SS test tomorrow. i hope i'll do well:( have not been doing well in all my tests so far.. borderline for both A and E math, failing physics, chemistry and chinese. (aiya this one die die sure must fail one) i seriously don't know how to mug? so many distractions around me and even though if they are taken away, i still find no interest in studying at all (except for art). only tuition helps and if i really pay full attention and make full use of it, the best i can get so far is borderline? haha borderline.. yeah what future will i have with borderline grades? a lawyer with high pay haha. WAIT LONG LONG AH! and it's so pressurizing.. imagine beating with thousand over students which are like.. so much brainier than and pile of shit like me? the thing is i can't study.. i mean anything is possible but its FREAKING HARD and yes, since i am a christian i should think positive but there are times when i feel like im done for. YOU KNOW??!! like you're not gonna make it to anywhere but grow up to be a loser and stay in a shitty home and work extra extra hard to support my parents? yeah it's gonna be tough man.. can't be a pig anymore